Now what's it ?

I suppose I could write something really from my heart. It rained again today and I was lucky enough to be home to watch light rain falling from my window after a long time, a mug of coffee and my lazy messy bed greeting me with ink bottles, pencils and yellow notebooks.

 I thought of burying my nose into my favorite book to get misplaced in to my world of thoughts and out of the blue I grasped - Yes one more year passed out of my life with so many ‘etched in your mind’ moments but now life is offering me a second chance with another year ahead, yes you are here, I have so many  ‘ look forward to’  for you 2012! I just want to stitch some more crazy dreams!

I want to name my most beautiful dreams, I know there are many, my unknown strange feelings. Can I call it love? Yeah I love my trendy old-fashioned books, my dirty muddy bag, my ‘started rusting’ violin, my loved photographs, my dear little best things of my lonely heart and my ‘foolish admirer romance’.

 To trip to my favorite lands once again; they are a part of me even though they let me go. Yes I want to live the ‘old me myself’ once again. I need to start packing from today; I have too many things with me this time, not really that much just anxiety, love, hope, expectation and weird dreams !

I need a little time to rediscover all the dear people I let go because of ignorant fights, because of my ‘hard to say I’m sorry’, because I was timid and skeptical, because of my strange ‘character sometimes’ ,egos and arrogant covert love. To be more clear ‘because I was mad!’

I want to take life more seriously; it’s not goanna be fun filled days anymore, I need to direct the story of my life, scripts are already written, I want my actors to come to my stage. As my best friend instruct me every time “don’t blabber around the streets, you are no more a child”, yes I accept that and I’ll try controlling the ‘chatting machine me’. OMG but I don’t know to what extend it’ll workout.

Don’t go back! Comeback!  I live with black and white movies and my friend’s ‘dumb rubbish songs’ of my ‘rarest taste’. I need to get out of that at least for their sake or else they’ll kill me. And I hereby take a sturdy judgment that I’ll never ever repeat and replay ‘my evergreen favorite songs’!

To taste something new other than my every time ‘only taste’. God please don’t bless me with toilet thunders! Bangalore doctors are not my father in laws, they make me count stars with the bills ! Let me taste something novel !

I want to let off and put out of my mind what my idiots did, I’ll try my best to be normal all because I love them a lot. I want my three musketeers to be back to live the most colorful life of friendship. Come back for me, please !

I’m greedy, I agree! I’m selfish, I admit! I’ve attitude, I mean it!  Still I have a loving heart! Thank you so much 2011 for all the things you gifted and took away from me.

Its new year, a bunch of new things for everyone, Happy New Year !